cansada

Tudo o que eu faço é pra tentar te agradar, mas você só consegue ver defeitos e me criticar.
Tento melhorar, mas você nem percebe por estar muito ocupada brigando com todo mundo.
Nunca sai nenhuma palavra boa, nenhum elogio por mais que eu alcance as metas, realize boas coisas, você não faz nada pra comemorar "não foi mais que a sua obrigação".
Mas é só estar na frente de um estranho que viro o seu troféu, fala com o maior orgulho das minhas conquistas, mal sabe eles que é só fingimento. Pra você eu sou só o motivo pelo qual você jogou anos da sua vida fora, como você mesmo já disse mais de uma vez.
Por que você faz isso comigo? Não percebe que as suas palavras machucam e só me fazem chorar?
Estou cansada de tentar ser a garota perfeita, você só sabe reclamar e não dá valor a ninguém!
Ninguém é bom o suficiente pra você, nada está bom e você reclama ainda mais.
Estou cansada disso tudo, cansada do mesmo todo dia, quero mudar, tento mudar, mas você sempre me puxa pra baixo e me deixa mal.

it hurts

Why do you still have this power over me? There's been so many years since our last kiss, since I took that stupid decision and break everything up. I still regreat that moment, but sometimes I wonder that that was better this way, I wasn't ready back then. But the problem is that now I am and I can't have you anymore, I just want you. I try to look at other boys but all I can see is you, none of them look as interesting and handsome as you are. Just you be around me and my heart goes crazy, one touch to wake me up, how is it possible? Now I don't even need to be around you to feel this way, it's just I see you online and my heart beats fast, I get nervous, my mind can't think right. All I want to do is talk to you, apologize and ask for a second chance. But that's me and I'm too coward to talk to you again, I tried, but you ignored me, you said you had to go. I don't feel like I'm strong enough to risk another goodbye when all I dream is a hello. Why does it have to be so hard? I wish I were stronger enough to jump, to risk and if I took another goodbye or worse, I would just move on. Will I ever be like this? I hope it doesn't hurt forever because I can't take it much longer, soon you'll get another girl and I'm not ready to this, I'm not strong enough. But I have to learn how to be. I have to make a decision and deal with the consequences. I can't do it anymore, I can't suffer alone. Either I get you or I forget you, there's no other choice. If you don't want me anymore I'll find someone that does. This is my last vacation thinkng about you. I'm done with this pain.

when you're by my side

Once with you everything seemed perfect, if you were by my side nothing else mattered, the world was just you and me, there was no one, no problems, no judges, just us, that moment. Every time with you was like a little bit of heaven, I counted the seconds to meet you. What you did to have this power over me? It doesn't matter now, I was already in love with you and I felt good, it was good. I didn't care about what everyone else said, I didn't care about what they thought about you, about us. I just followed my heart. Now I'm looking at this rain and that reminds me us, that night that we ran into each other in the pouring rain, we kissed on the sidewalk and the whole world was gone.

Love at first sight

I remember the first time I saw you, the first time you touched me, you took my hand to dance with me, I could barely breath with you so close to me, I had never felt that way before, I was dizzy, I couldn't move, you were so close that I could hear your heart beat or was that my own? It beat so so fast, like it's never had. But that contact was so brief that as soon as you let me go I missed your body next to mine, it was crazy, made me so confused. Everyone talked to me, but I was speechess, I had lost my words, but actually they were all with you and all I could do was stare at you hoping that you had felt the same, but you didn't. For you I was just a little girl that your friend made you dance with, a girl that you tried to teach how to dance but was born with two left feet. What you couldn't imagine was that little girl since that daycan't think about anythng else but you. I wish I had invited you to be my prince, but I couldn't neither think nor talk, so I wasted my first chance...

why...

Why can’t I just forget you and be free? Why don’t you get out of my mind and let me move on? I wanna a restart, but you’re holding me back. I know that you don’t think about me anymore, actually, have you ever thought about me at all? ‘cause there isn’t a day I don’t think about you. Why am I so stupid? Why I acted like that? I should have given us a chance, but now it’s too late. Now I have to deal with my choice, I have to deal with my pain. Have you ever liked me? Did you feel the same? Now I just want to be happy, but I can’t with you in my head. When I finally had a chance with you, when you finally looked at me I was too afraid with the fall. I should have jumped head to feet on us, but I didn’t, now I have to live with that. Will I ever forget? Will I ever move on? All I wanted was you, but I backed down.

take a chance

Sempre gostei muito de inglês e tento ser a melhor aluna possível no curso, até que um dia meu professor chegou em mim e perguntou se eu queria dar aula, tinha aparecido uma oportunidade num outro curso que ele trabalhava e ele pensou em mim, na hora fiquei apavorada, afinal nunca tinha dado aula e minha experiências apresentando trabalho pra turma tinham sido péssimas, sempre fico super nervosa, nem consigo falar direito, mas aceitei o desafio. Ele passou um período me ajudando e lá fui eu com a cara e a coragem enfrentar minha primeira turma. Graças a Deus a primeira aula quem deu foi esse meu professor, só fiquei ali do lado dele assistindo, mas estava tremendo como nunca, momentos de pura nervosismo! Na segunda aula fui bem mais tranquila e deu tudo certo. Hoje tenho que confessar que adorei ter corrido esse risco, descobri um prazer enorme em dar aula, posso chegar lá com dor, cansada, com sono, mas quando entro na sala esqueço tudo, tudo desaparece! Por isso acho tão importante se arriscar de vez em quando, agarrar uma chance que aparece, afinal a gente nunca sabe em qual esquina vai se encontrar. Sair da nossa zona de conforto pode ser desagradável de início, mas a recompensa pode ser muito boa, descobrir um talento ou uma habilidade, um prazer, um passatempo, enfim, ir fazer algo desafiador, diferente! Que tal tentar alguma coisa diferente hoje?

About me

Sou uma estudante de história indecisa (cada dia acordo querendo uma carreira diferente, mas sempre acabo continuando com a história mesmo), completamente apaixonada por livros e o ato de compra-los, mas odeio ler por obrigação. Sonho ter uma biblioteca em casa. Amo línguas, principalmente inglês, quero um dia ser poliglota. E sou completamente viciada em séries, adoro assistir, ler notícias, tudo e qualquer coisa sobre série, tentei ser spoiler-free, mas percebi que isso não é pra mim, a minha curiosidade e ansiedade não deixam.